Someone came to me and told me that a certain someone retaliated to a tumblr post i made. it wasn't terrible, it was a simply saying how i'm finally happy and have no regrets by losing certain people. seriously? i don't care. its nice that your life is so exciting that you have to lurk me 24/7 and retaliate like 30 minutes later. after all the stupid vague posts you guys have posted about me, i've not once retaliated. not once. so you guys can "fuck ya selves" and leave me out of your tumblrs/blogs/what the fuck ever. because when it comes down to it, i haven't changed and i haven't done anything wrong. look in the mirror and re-consider your life a little.

with that being said, yes, i am so much happier now that i have ever been before. I don't have constant judgement over my shoulder, making sure i make no mistakes. I don't have people who call me their friends but shit talk me on the side. I don't get ditched anymore. Basically, I have REAL friends who actually care about me and treat me with respect. I don't have to impress them or live up to some fucking ridiculous expectation.

My good day streak continued! I was able to get a ride into Cambridge from my dad and was dropped off at Kaila's house. We sat in her bed and caught each other up to speed with our lives. I've missed her to pieces and even now i still do. The day was spent with her cleaning her room, whoring me on her twitter and dying of laughter. Once we were done that and dinner, Tiff and Joe came to grab us. We visited kaila's grandma and then went to metro to pick up some morning food for the betrayal boys. We hungout at Kaila's moms house the entire night. I hadn't seen those boys since last summer, so it was nice to re-meet them and hangout. I was so over tired, i was pretty well drunk. The next morning, Kaila and her mother made them a huge breakfast. They left for brantford around 1, while we hung around at kaila's and got ready. 7 rolled around and we headed out. We stopped and picked up some energy drinks and candy. Needless to say, we were both hyper as fuck. The show in brantford was good and i enjoyed hanging out with Kaila as much as possible.

Easter was good today, i spent the majority of the time holding my cousin Vanessa aka the cutest girl in the world (she's 10 months old by the way).

Life has really been looking up and i've been happier then i have in ages. It's safe to say, i'm happier without the 3 of you. everything is so much better and i'm finally beginning to figure out who i am. i'm allowed to be myself and not feel scared or threatened. And I have some of the best friends i could ever ask for.

i look like such a scum bag right now. my hair is such a mess and i probably look so tired. i had a nice past 2 days!

i got into toronto at 10 and met up with lee around 1040. we ventured to the eatons center and eventually to f21. i bought two dresses and a neckles from there, soo cute. eventually we made it to the show later on in the day and hung out with people i hadn't seen for a long time. it was a real good night last night.

i really want to believe you're being sincere this time. technically you've never really lied to me but you've been somewhat sneaky about things, so it's given me enough reason to question things you say to me. i'm aware you've always liked me and that's never been the issue. it's just the way you've always gone about it and the things you've said. by all means, i'm past all of that and am looking forward to you keeping your word. but if you don't, then i know what kind of guy you are and i'll know not to waste my time.

i hope i get to see my wife tomorrow.

i haven't been up this early in so long. i was actually up at 6am for some reason. being up this early makes me want to barf, it doesn't help that i was up late last night either. but whatever! it was worth it! spending the day in Toronto and kissing so many faces tonight.

Seeing you fail at this, couldn't say i really give a shit.

Mother nature is such a cunt. I wake up and look out the window, fucking snow! are you kidding me?! it was so nice last week, bring that weather back. So help me god, i'm wearing a dress tomorrow and nothing can stop me...

Tomorrow came so fast! Time has seriously been flying by. I'm not complaining in the least bit, i'm so excited for tomorrow. Well, not excited to wake up super early but it's totally worth it.

I feel like i'm up way too early for a saturday morning but i guess this isn't out of the usual. I never really can sleep past 9am for some reason.

I want the next 3 days to just fly by. Work has been flying by, so I don't have any doubt in my mind that these next 3 days won't. As long as i keep busy, they will. Tuesday morning, i'll be training to Toronto to meet up with Natasha and Lee. I thankfully have so much money! I get to shop at forever 21 and buy a ton of cute dresses. I'm sure at some point during the day we'll be getting sushi as well. Later on in the day, depending on whatever time STYG get's there, we'll end up hanging out with them for the night. Over all, it's just going to be a really good day. I have tuesday - friday off. No idea what i'm going to do with myself but i'm just glad to have the time off for once.

i'm just stoked to get away from this bullshit town, even for a little while!

the last time i posted was in august of last year, it's now april. i've had so many blogs, its getting hard to count. i had a passworded tumblr but that's not right. i shouldn't care who reads my shit and who cares enough about my life to lurk it so badly. so i guess i'm back to this blog. i just need some sort of outlet that not many people know about, that i can just freely talk if need be.

i've lost 3 friends in a matter of weeks and to be frank, i don't regret a damn thing. in my mind, i know i've done nothing wrong. i get that people have opinions and stuff but get over it. if you really think i'm being a bad person, come to me and lets talk about it. not over text, not over the internet. grow a pair and just come talk to me. i won't bite your head off. i'm an adult. as far as i'm concerned, you're all in highschool still. i don't like vague posts but obviously that hasn't stopped any of you, so whatever. i'll post what i want and not give a fuck.

i had a nice heart to heart with my grandmother today. she re-assured me that i'm not a terrible person and that i've made the right choice. that i was treated like pretty much dirt by people i called my friends. she pointed out so many things that i'd never noticed before. this is coming from her, not me. i'm glad she enlightened me because now i feel even better about the decisions i've made. this is whats best for me. it's so nice to actually be able to be myself and not constantly be judged or criticized for what i do. absolutely no one is perfect and everyone has made their mistakes.

i'm growing and i'm learning. it's part of who i am and if people can't take that for what it is, so be it. i love all the friends i have in my life, they're amazing people.