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I wish you weren't so depressed. I wish i could somehow help you, without it coming off the wrong way. I care but not in the way you want me to care. It's complicated, pretty well everything is complicated. If we could talk without our feelings getting involved, I'd be okay with that.

I hate sleeping alone. I'm already sick of it. I just want someone next to me, we don't even have to cuddle. I just want that feeling back. It's such a nice feeling. Just being close. It's pathetic really, that's the only thing I really miss about being in a relationship. But whatever.

Alanah is back, for a week or two and it's been so nice so far. I've seen her twice and it just feels like old times. She had a partyish thing tonight and holy fuck. It felt like old times and I laughed just so fucking hard. It was ridiculous.

I should sleep but I just don't want to. I'm too awake but tired? I don't even know.

I'm already sick of being single. I wish that wasn't the case because I don't need a relationship right now but whatever. It's what I want. I just don't trust any of the boys I talk to (sorry.).

Welp, we were talking none stop, you were gone for a bit and apparently during that time you forgot about me? i don't know. I wish you'd just talk to me like you were before. As hard as you are on yourself, you're really great. I guess i should just get over this then?

I'm bitter again today, seems like this is a lot more constant

Yesterday was hands down the best day of the summer so far. Warped tour was so good. I saw all the bands I wanted and sang a long so so much. I bought a FYS tank and PBC tank. I saw so many people I hadn't seen in a long time and met some new friends! I went with Kaila, Emilia and Sheree aka the best girls. Also, so many tattooed babes at warped.

Thanks for spending the majority of your day hanging out with me. It was really sweet and you were super nice. I really appreciated it :).

Tattoo appointment booked for August 24th! Beyond excited. Calvin and Hobbes half sleeve basically? I think so.

I'm so drained right now. and bitter, but happy. How is it possible to be so happy but so bitter?

Kaila's bbq was a lot of fun. Emilia came with me, we made cup cakes and pasta salad. It was just so nice spending time with friends and seeing people I hadn't seen in a long while. Kaila gave me an awesome holographic wolf picture! so so good.

My back, neck and shoulders have really been acting up lately. They've progressively been getting worse and worse. I really hope the pain isn't coming back, I really don't want to do physio all over again.

I miss a lot of people right now, mostly my best friends (a specially Kyle).

Retro tomorrow night, hell yeeeeee.