I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while but I honestly haven't been home since Saturday! Saturday after work, Natasha picked me up from work. We went home, i grabbed my stuff and we headed into London. We hung out with Kyle, drank energy drink and watched movies. I think we got about 5 hours sleep, tops. Sunday we woke up at about 11, got ready and met Sarah and her boyfriend Phoug, at Prince Al's. I haven't eaten there in so so long. It was really nice seeing Sarah and it felt so normal. After lunch, Natasha and I walked back to Kyle's and just laid around, watching TV. Kristen finally came home and we all started to get ready for Retro.

Retro in itself, was a whole lot of awkward. I won't bother getting into details.

Monday, Natasha, Kristen and I went to Grand Bend. The weather was perfect. We met up with Tiff and just tanned most of the day. Hung out with Devon, Sarah and Phoug for some of the day. Eventually went home. Kaila picked me up once I was home and we headed to Toronto. Needless to say, I was home for like 10 minutes tops. Toronto was so so much fun. I met some new people and couldn't be happier. I can thank Kaila for that, she's helped me become less shy and more open to meeting people. I love new friends, fireworks, police and just being so silly. We didn't get home until 4 am and barely slept.

Tuesday, we woke up at 11, or at least Kaila did. She got ready for work and i just lazied around. We finally decided that I'd just come to the mall with her, since she only worked 3 hours. I spent the first hour wondering around and the rest just hanging out with her in the store. Once she was done work, we did some runing arond and then were on our way to Buffalo. The border was silly and the car got searches. "Fuck xray trucks, how do they work?!". We went right to Davids, hung out there for a bit, went to the show, listened to good music, listned to an asshole who wouldn't shut the fuck up and just had the best time. Once again, we barely slept. The ride back to Canada was hot, the vegan lunch was great and the ride home was even more hot and sweaty.

I'm stupidly happy and have the dumbest butterflies in my stomach.

You've done the best to make me resent you, well congrats, because I resent you like no other. You've spewed countless lies (I presume they are lies) and have fucked with my head. I'm almost glad to say that I'm closing this chapter of my life. I won't care about you anymore and I won't give a fuck. I invested too much time and money into you and I've learned my lesson. Fuck you.

Sarah and I are friends again. I don't care who likes it and who doesn't. I have made the effort to make things better and I have done my time. I've changed a lot over these past months and I know that we can get past, the past and move on. I'm sick of people running around and bitching about us being friends. Grow up. If we can get past everything, you can too. I'm actually so angry right now.

Tonight I got called into work but that's okay. I really need the money.

In late June/ early July, I'm going on a road trip with my friend Suzanne. We'll probably try and find another person but it's going to be so fun. We're visiting a ton of haunted places in the states (New york, specifically). I need more things like this in my life. More adventures.

Drama needs to get the fuck out.

I'm in such a weird mood right now. It's not a good one, that's for sure.

I find it very weird that I can only rely on certain people anymore. A couple of my friends have just dropped off the face of the planet. We barely talk, they make no effort in hanging out (yet make more effort to hangout with other people), etc. I always attempt at making plans or asking when they're free but the effort doesn't come back my way. Whatever, I'm not bothering anymore.

I'm fairly sure I'm allergic to yellow ink. My triforce tattoo is so itchy right now and really bumpy. It gets like this if I hit it or itch it. I dislike it very much.

Why is it there's so much we want but we never get it. We want want want but I have no idea how to get. It's just far too complicated and I wish things came easier, like they do for some people. But at the same time, I really don't mind working hard to obtain what I want.

This weekend was good and bad. Friday I didn't do much of anything, worked all of saturday and then went out with Emilia and Kristen. I over drank and I know I did. I don't think I'll be drinking for a long long time. That night was a total right off for me. Sunday I worked all day and then came home, watched LOST and fell asleep early.

I now have three days off and I don't really know what I'll do with those three days. Probably hangout with Emilia, like we usually do.

I am so sick of finding out new things about you. We don't even talk anymore but I still hear things that happened while we did talk. Why do you do these things to me? I don't deserve it. You're not honest in any way, I feel betrayed. And yet, for some fucked up reason, I still find myself missing you. After everything you have done. I don't even know if anything you've ever told me has been true or not. But I won't break down, I won't cave and contact you. This is what's best for the both of us.

I just finished watching PS I love and fuuuuuuck, that movie always gets me. I want to be in love like that, it's just so amazing. I've seen people like that in love and it's such a nice thing to see. It's so refreshing. None of that obsessive PDA stuff, real legit stuff. I haven't felt like that in so long and who knows when the next time will be. I'm okay with being single but in all seriousness, where is all the none shitty dudes at? Stop hiding.

Emilia is coming over later so we can finish season one of True Blood. Addicted, no big deal.

My grandma got into a car accident in the states and it's bumming me out. The car isn't even driveable anymore but she's okay. Although, my mom just took her to the hospital because she's in a lot of pain. So, once again, back to worrying about her.

Drake, your music is so fucking catchy but please, get back in your wheelchair already.

I stayed over at Emilia's house last night, we stayed up until like 3 am watching True Blood. Best idea ever. We basically hang out all of the time and it makes me so happy. I'm so glad I have a constant in my life.

Also, speaking of which, It's super cool the people just fuck off when they get a new boyfriend or girlfriend. Except it's not cool at all. We geeeeet it, you're young and in luuuuv, awwwwwesome. Fuck off. I know the first thing I plan on doing when I get a boyfriend is fucking off forever.

Here, you can lurk my life via this blog. Now stop trying to fucking add me to everything ever. I don't like you. Sweet!

This weekend was so super good. My dad dropped me off at the mall in Cambridge and I met up with Kaila and Nikki. They were dress shopping for Nikki's wedding. She put on this one dress to show me and she looked so so amazing. After shopping and looking around , we went to Crabby's for half price aps. So yummy! We eventually dropped Nikki off at her place and headed to Kaila's mom's. We stayed up super late just talking to her mom in the kitchen. Saturday we slept until like 12:30 and got up and got ready. We went to Ruiner in Toronto at around 6:30ish. It was a good show, for sure. After words, we headed to sneaky dee's for some nachos. I fucking looooove nachos. It was a really fucking good night and weekend.

I'm currently waiting on Emilia to get her butt over here, so we can go to coffee culture and have some good chats. It's so weird! I havent seen her in two days and needless to say, i miss her!

Well, I have two blogs now. I have a more private one, that only a limited amount of people can read and now I have this one. I felt the need to re-start having an open one. I don't really care who lurks it because it's whatever. You can lurk my life as much as you want, I could really careless!

This weekend is going to be a good one. After work tomorrow, my dad is going to be driving me to Cambridge, to Kaila's. We're going to Buffalo to hangout. Saturday, we'll head back to Canada and go to the Ruiner show in Toronto. I'm pretty sure this whole weekend will just be full of laughs and good times with my wife. I can't even explain how excited I am!

Emilia and I have been hanging out almost every single day and it's the best ever. I really hope it continues this way.

It's safe to say that I was kidding myself when I said I wasn't over you. I am so far over you, it isn't even funny. You can try make sure everyone knows that I'm pathetic but that's not the case at all. I am so so sorry that I actually have feelings.